The beginning..

    welcome to the life of Santana Gonzales, also know as Tana... a nickname my darling brother gave me after I was born. I'm new to this whole blogging thing so bear with me if these first few entries are a little....crappy. so let's start off with a little bio of myself....I'm seventeen, from a very small town, finishing my senior year, and entering the "adult" life by working through school. For being seventeen I have my head on pretty straight, I know what I'm supposed to do and when to do them (my momm always tells me im 17 going on 30), but i guess having to grow up the way i did does that to you. I'm not going to get into the big story of my non-existing childhood so don't worry. I'm just going to tell you about the most important people in my life right now...the one's that I love. I'm the youngest of three, the oldest being my sister, Danielle, the middle being my brother, Johnathan, and then me, Tana. I'll start with my wonderful mother, honestly without her i wouldn't be who I am today. She's beautiful beyond all imagination and I love her to death she's one of a kind, and you'll never be able to frown around her, you'll either be laughing with her, or at her:) My step-dad...well actaully dad...he's raised me like his own so I think he deserves that title. Him and my mom married May 5 of 07' i believe...I was at NMMI at the time and didn't really know him, but he made my mother happy so i didn't say anything ( my mom has been single for a very long time, she raised us alone for the longest time, and seeing her happy was all that mattered to me) he supported us in every way imaginable and as of christmas day last year, baught us our house...the first house we had ever really had, and it was really ours:) he gave us a home...and a father, I am so greatful for everything that he has done for us. My sister, Danielle AKA Di.....hmmmmm what to say about her...well we are NOTHING alike but the same in almost every way, including looks. She's young and beautiful, but doesn't always think straight...we never really talked or even liked eachother untill her first year of college, I asked her if i could stay with her for a few weeks in the summer and thats when everything changed, we realized how much we had in common and have been inseperable ever since...well that was untill about a month ago when she decided to move in with her boyfriend Rusty (Robert) and now we hardly hang out anymore...I love her with all of my heart, and I miss her alot...but hey, things like this are supposed to happen. My brother John....what to say about him...lol he's interesting....he has always been the one I hung out with growing up, I was the biggest tom boy because of him, he made me the fighter that I am today. He's always been there when I needed him the most, even when it came to the boyfriends..he's an awsome guy, and I'v enjoyed growing up with him (okay here's a breakdown, my mother, me, my brother and sister are all the same when it comes to our personalities, we are to the point that we can read eacthothers minds) so lady's he's single and hard working, but hurt him and you will feel my wrath!!!! :)  Next is the boyfriend/future husband, Christopher Kolson, aka, Chris. He is the love of my life....but it all started out when I went to NMMI in the 9th grade(3 yrs ago) he was dating my roommate, courtney, thats how I met him, and from there we just started talking as friends. Then out of the blue when I made my Facebook, and his picture just popped up out of no where!!! and then it just went from there:)  we exchanged numbers and started talking from there, he came into my life when i had just ended a three year realtionship with the biggest A-hole ever! but I wont go into details about that one either...so where was I.. oh yeah, he helped me get through some tough times, and ever since then I have the happiest person alive, he helped me find God...and love...then it just happend...we fell for eachother, we don't know why or how but we did..we hadn't seen or talked to eachother in over three years and it was like we had never stopped talking..he was my bestfriend then, just like he is now. He has taught me so many things since we starting talking...I am so very thankful to have him, because I have NEVER known love like this:) I am only seventeen and I have found TRUE love! how many people can say that? sure there's the whole puppy love thing, but trust me when I say this, you just know when it's true love...you just know. Then there's my bestie Lisa, miss Lisa....where to begin......well we didn't grow up together or anything, we actually worked together and it blossomed from there, i knew who she was but we just never really talked....at all lol, well yeah, work, our wonderful summer job at Carmike Cinemas brought us together, and we've been inseperable ever since:) she's really only the second bestfriend that happens to be a girl that I have ever had. ALOT of girls just don't like me....not sure why, they just dont....now guys on the other hand, I have alot of besty-guy friends...so that may be one issue....but whatevs:) I love her no matter what anyone says! she is special...and not specail ed:) just special, she's always been there for me, and I never had that from someone of the same sex. I love her, because she knows who she is, which is a independant, young, beautiful, smart, and talented woman, granted she is a mess, but that's what I'm here for:) I love you Leeeeeserrrss!!!! Now here's the cousins...Ariana (Ari) and Dezeray (Dezy) Me and Ari are the same age, and Dezy's older than us by about a year and a half, they are family, we all never really got along...weirdly. We actually all faught...ALOT. but now that we have all grown up we all get along very very well...we have movie nights...and drunken nights..lol we all just grew up and realized what being family really meant. Overall I have very little people in my life whom I love dearly...just know that without them I would be totally lost...and lonely...I love you all very very much. Thank you for putting up with me all of these years:) I know it's not always easy...